I AM BACK!!--- Our journey with international surrogacy continues

After our surrogate suffered a miscarriage I was heart broken and have been feeling lost for this last few months.  Although we immediately decided to start the process again the financial and emotional destruction that the first miscarriage caused had left a scar. The wonderful clinic and Dr. Rita Bakshi gave me a better price so we could afford another implantation.  The surrogate they prepared this time got a virus a couple days before implantation....ALL that stress and all that waiting for what felt like forever...I had to start again! What I mean by again is I had to wait for them to prepare another surrogate.  NO matter what anyone says...you have to have a little bit of a hands off approach when it comes to international surrogacy.  I did not get to choose my surrogate because while they prep a few, they only pick the one with best uterine lining....Long story short I ended up waiting until July 22nd 2014 for another implantation.  The photo they sent me of the surrogate had me a little worried because she looked a little overweight...But after they assured me that she wasn't (Not sure still lol)...I left it up to god and my wonderful clinic to do the work! 
Two LONG weeks later we got another positive!!! The HCG levels 14 days post 5 day transfer were 1149 and two days later 2289.  Still the next few weeks were emotional torture...Because the last time we had made it this far and got the bad news at the 6.5 week ultrasound.  We received an email three weeks later and the ultrasound was "fine" (using their words).  There was a heartbeat...139! So here we are nervous and anxious..the next test will not be until 12 weeks (3 more weeks to go!!!).  

SO you would think okay they are set and things have to start to look up! Well, originally when we started this process...we decided to mail our embryos so we would only have to make one trip to pick up our baby.   Ever since last months THAILAND SURROGACY CASE ( australian couple does gestational surrogacy in thailand, picks up only the healthy baby and leaves twin brother back, after background checks the media finds out the intended father was a pedophile--although he says hes reformed)....THE INDIAN government decided they needed to meet us NOW!!! Look, I am not here to judge...but it really drives me crazy when one couple ruins it for everyone.  I am not in their situation nor do I know who is telling the truth...All I know is NOW WE HAVE TO GO TO NEW DELHI IN OCTOBER...ahhhhh

I don't know if I have mentioned this to anyone earlier but I HATE FLYING!! ABSOLUTELY DREAD IT!!! We booked our trip for OCT 12-16 for New Delhi and are staying at Hyatt Regency New Delhi! But boy am I dreading the flight!! 16 hours in a tube in the air with complete strangers.  I have written to United Airlines and asked them for an upgrade...I seriously doubt Ill be getting one but hey why not ask ..you never know who is on the other side of the email...I guess I will be drinking bacardi the entire way there and back to calm my nerves!! hehehehe...
I called the clinic and spoke to the hospitality guy and explained that I would like them to do the 12 ultrasound scan before we go...I would hate for us to have to travel all the way there and find out something went wrong....I know I am being so negative...but I am tired of getting my hopes up!
Its so weird because besides Alex's and my moms NO ONE KNOWS....of course you all..I see that I have many views...and I encourage those who read this to leave me a comment, maybe share with me what your journey entails, any support I can give or receive it wonderful.I will be posting more often! Fingers crossed!

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